#21DayFIX Day 2 (again)

21 Day FIX arrived in the mail on Friday, July 8. I started that day! I ate according to the portions and meal plan and exercised that night (Total Body Cardio Fix). I was hungry. I thought, well, tomorrow will be better. Oh, and I didn't even complete the workout. Devin and the boys came downstairs and watched me exercise and kept talking to me, I got mad and went upstairs. Bad idea! My thighs were killing me for days. And, Shakeology was disgusting. I couldn't even finish the one. I drank about a quarter of what I Devin prepared.

Saturday, July 9: I ate according to the meal plan and portions and exercised in the middle of the day. Again, I was hungry. So many reviews said the portions were so filling, there was almost too much to eat, but I did not have that experience. That night I felt exhausted, so hungry, and I was in immense pain. My thighs quads were so sore that I could barely move around the house, let alone get down on the floor to play with my boys. 

Sunday, July 10: Anxiety hit me hard, like most Sundays, so I stayed in bed until the middle of the afternoon. I got up to go to a baby blessing celebration (sweet little Sophie Hanna) and didn't adhere to my meal plan. Although, I did take a smaller portion of dessert than I usually would have. :) Then, it was my sister's (Genny) birthday party. I didn't know the meal plan well enough to know what to eat and how much, so I just ate until I was full and didn't gorge myself on dinner. I only had a scosche of pie and no ice cream. The night was agony! I was up until late, I think around 2 a.m., with the most miserable stomach pains I could imagine, and I've had three children and one ectopic pregnancy, I know stomach pain. This felt like labor. Perhaps it was only gas. I burped a lot. Devin stayed up with me because I was in such distress. 

Monday, July 11: I stayed in bed pretty much all day. Except for the panic attacks of course. 

July 12-15: I just tried to get through the day. I was too scared to respond to anyone from Beachbody so I deleted Messenger and didn't follow through with my challenge group. Bad Laurie!

Saturday, July 16: Lagoon Day through Devin's employer. Do you think I exercised? I didn't.

Sunday, July 17: Anxiety again, no surprise, and I stayed in bed pretty much all day. I napped for all of church and a lot of the time before and after church. What is wrong with my body?!?!

Monday, July 18: I decided to look fear in the face and shove it far from me. I started responding to my Beachbody work, downloaded Messenger again, and exercised. I thought maybe I should just exercise and not start the meal plan yet. I think it shocked my body and I don't want to quit again. I did the Total Body Cardio Fix all the way through and added extra stretching at the end in an effort to prevent some of the massive pain I felt the first time. It worked! I got through 4 cups of water. :(

Tuesday, July 19: Finally, here we are today. 

     I exercised: Upper Body Fix. It was a little bit easier than last week and I didn't push myself as hard, hoping that my stomach wouldn't revolt and cause anarchy within my body again. I'm feeling pretty good. I ate an apple for a snack tonight instead of looking for some ice cream, graham crackers, cookies, etc. I'm still hungry, but doing okay. I have gotten through 7 cups of water. That is incredible for me! I am not a water drinker. I like milk. 

I've been concerned about Shakeology. I think it will help my body, but I just can't eat food I don't like. That sounds petty, but I've always been like that with food. So, I looked up lots of recipes on Club Beachbody and people recommend just shaking it in the shaker cup with almond milk. So, I'll try that tomorrow. I don't even know if I like almond milk.